#engaging in vices

[mintalovell]

lil sketch of Dain Bennett because i just can’t stop drawing my dnd characters

[bobafettuccini]

"They want to censor people who engage in misinformation"

Yes!! When somebody deliberately lies I'm going to tell them to shut the fuck up!!

[risilence]

I am not ok.

😭😭😭😭 She is literally incapable of taking care of herself now... I-!!!!!!!!

THIS HURTS WAY MORE 😭😭😭 WE MADE HER INTO SUCH A HELPLESS ROMANTIC😭😭😭

I haven't finished the interrogation, but GODDAMN!!! Everytime Angell shows up I just want Chief to propose 😮‍💨

[serpentface]

Oh yeah I meant to ask, to what extent does social paranoia/self-surveillance/Complexes/etc. affect Janeys & Brakul’s relationship, or their attitudes toward one another/themselves? I remember something written about them not engaging in penetrative sex in relation to Wardi taboos on bodily integrity, which, if not just happening to coincide with personal preference, sounds potentially pretty fraught. (Maybe excessively paranoid, but I want to clarify that this isn’t necessarily a Horny Question)

Not a horny question but as usual my answer is going to be excessively long and detailed so get ready.

Anyway yeahhhh it’s pretty fraught. The bottom line is that they love each other and are also mad horny about it with only a limited number of outlets, which only adds stress to an already stressful situation. They are fully aware that they love each other and there's no 'no homo'ing their way out of this one, but ARE kind of in denial about there being a sexual component to their relationship (which is partly bolstered by the Wardi view on sexuality only considering Full Penetration to actually be 'sex', and they aren't doing that, sooooo....).

With regards to paranoia/self surveillance....

Both of them share a fairly equal concern about status and honor. They are both fully in agreement that many aspects of their relationship have to be secret and that both need to uphold a normative life for high status individuals. The threat of public shaming is a very real concern, and they have killed people over it (duels over slander and impugned honor are legal in some contexts, Brakul extralegally beat a guy to death for it once).

Brakul personally most concerned about other people, and is compelled to avoid doing anything in public that could even be construed as romantic in nature. Wardi cultural norms permit men to be physically affectionate with male friends (kissing on the cheek is a common greeting) but Brakul is pretty hardline Bro Do Not Even Touch Me In Public. He has very few compunctions about anything done in private so long as he doesn't specifically feel emasculated by it.

Janeys is heavily religious and strongly concerned about curses and spiritual pollution (all believers in this faith share this basic tendency, but it tends to be of more pressing psychological concern to the upper classes via impact on social status and honor). His core personal concerns are on the spiritual end of things- belief in curses and spiritual pollution is a very real motivating factor in this culture. Anything he does that is conventionally understood as emasculating or spiritually violating, he has to rationalize and self-justify away.

There’s a tendency among the upper class to imagine the Commoner having a poor, uneducated, and superficial understanding of the religion, and philosophical debates on the nuances of religion is considered an ideal leisure pastime among the educated upper class. So part of Janeys’ self-justification cycle is usually like “I am very smart and knowledgeable, and now that I’m thinking about it the idea that [xyz gay as shit behavior] is spiritually polluting is superstition of the common rabble and missing all the Subtle Nuances”.

It’s kind of like Janeys will laboriously mental gymnastics his way through his various concerns and eventually be like “I Have Discovered That Giving Blowjobs Is Not Spiritually Polluting, (And In Fact Is Very Masculine???) I Will Analyze This Further” and Brakul is like “Ok cool not polluting okay awesome that’s great ok let’s go let's go letsgoletsgoletsgo”

This is a long, slow process. They have been in a relationship where they both want to fuck each other stupid for over a decade without any of that happening, instead just very slowly escalating while being very frustrated about it the whole time.

Sworn brotherhoods such as theirs are upheld by an annual ritual involving bloodletting (the palms are cut, blood drained into wine and mutually imbibed, other stuff happens). It’s a lengthy ceremony and partly supervised by a priest. The first escalation is they started doing this like, monthly on their own. It feels intimate and scratches an itch for physical and psychological closeness.

This escalated into performing a ‘’’condensed’’’ version of the ritual, which is really just them sitting around and cutting each other with a razor and licking up the blood (while perhaps half-assedly reciting the associated prayers). The underlying factor is they always need to have some excuse that does not ‘shame’ them- in this case, they have decided that their frequent exchange of blood keeps their bond soooo strong and powerful and that they're like, the best sworn brothers ever.

This blood shit is UNQUESTIONABLY sexual for them and is a physical outlet for sexual frustration. And it does eventually escalate to them finally getting off (‘weird blood shit’ was their first base, ‘doing weird blood shit and frantically dry humping to completion and then not talking about it’ was their second, ‘kissing on the mouth’ was like, 6th)

This all was worsened by the genius decision of having Brakul knock up Hibrides, who is Janeys’ wife. Janeys has no attraction to women (and also probable fertility issues) so he never succeeded himself. She had passed the expected childbearing age and is utterly miserable in this relationship and was kinda like “uhhh if you won’t let me fucking DIVORCE YOUR ASS you’d better figure something out because you’re shaming ME”, and since sworn brothers effectively ‘share’ wives (IN THEORY this is just a commitment to support your brothers’ wife and children in the case of his death) they came to an agreement that this was NOT Janeys being cuckolded and shamed, as long as no one else finds out.

The lingering after effects of this decision are one of the primary strains on their relationship on a whole number of levels, one of which is Janeys now being intensely jealous of Hibrides for ‘getting to’ fuck Brakul, and that she has had a form of closeness with him that Janeys can never have (not even just the sex but like, conception itself). The feeling of having a metaphysical bond with someone who he sees as stronger than himself makes him feel more secure, and the sense that someone has gotten in the way of that and experienced something 'deeper' is very distressing for him. Brakul also kind of wants to be a father and really, really, really wants a relationship with his bastard children (something which both Janeys and Hibrides prevent him from doing) which really wears on him.

On a personal level, Janeys swings between feeling smugly justified about everything (he's only hiding it because everyone around him is stupid and wouldn't get The Nuances) and like, Oh God I've fucked up so bad I am shamed beyond recognition. Why did you let me do this to myself, this is your fault, you made me like this, etc etc etc. (This is especially the case when he suffers any unusual misfortune, seeing it as signs of a curse).

Brakul can usually weather this out (and is also very good at logically assuaging his concerns), but it's very draining on him. He shares the core belief in spiritual pollution, but he doesn't share the experience of actually Feeling dirty or shamed by things only they know about. They get into a lot of fights (not necessarily explicitly about all this, but it's an underlying tension) and Brakul often just deals with it by up and leaving for days on end until Janeys is miserable enough to not be upset. Brakul also has some alcohol abuse issues and could be diagnosed with clinical depression (not entirely because of this, but it doesn't help).

Another bottom line is just like, after over a decade in vehement denial that they are fucking each other, the notion of 'actually fucking each other' has kind of an outsized weight to it. Objectively (BY WARDI CULTURAL STANDARDS) they have ENTIRELY and thoroughly shamed each other and are riddled with spiritual pollution, and taking it up the ass couldn't make it any worse so might as well. But they haven't quite got there.

So yeah this is kind of all over the place but I think this answers the question???????

[minijenn]

Aight but look kids. I know you’re all excited about the potential UF reboot but I NEED you all to understand something very important. The way I wrote and engaged with UF… it can’t be like it was before. When I used to write UF, I strived way too hard to please everyone else to the point that I often found myself dissatisfied with what I was writing. It got to the point that I got burnt out with the fic because I wasn’t writing it for, well, myself, and because of that it became something of a chore.

With new UF, I plan on fixing that. I’m writing this fic solely for me this time around, making what I want it to be, which may not be what you want it to be. I’m going to take lengthy breaks when I feel like it, I’m not beholding myself to a stressful tight posting schedule, I’m going to be self indulgent and focus on the characters I want to focus on. I’m going to have fun this time around.

And if I end up writing something you don’t necessarily like, well, sorry about that, I can’t please everyone. I can only please myself. And hopefully this time, I will.

[psychicthepsychic-daily]

hood is the ceo of “other people have it worse” /HJ

[xero013]

How do you think the Nimbasa trio would react to a positive pregnancy test? (Even if it turns out to be a false alarm)

False Alarm💀

Sorry this took so long, this ask came out of nowhere that when I first saw it I had to do a double take—

Maybe not the exact answer but lEMME GO AHEAD AND INFODUMP MY THOUGHTS ABOUT THIS—

They already discussed about their arrangements;

Marriage was a: "Not now but maybe until when the time is right (the three of them having only been dating for three years still)"

And: "Alright with having kids, but after they've actually settled down (and their schedules aren't as tight but the twins would definitely be the type of dads to wear a baby carrier and bring the kids to work if there's no babysitters available www)".

Elesa wants to too but she's the kind of mom who doesn't want her kids to be under the spotlight cuz y'know. But you bet your sweet ass that she'd spoil them rotten like the good mom she is!

The rules has been set, very original I know (xD) but the twins are the type to take it to heart so their reactions are pretty reasonable especially for Ingo www (Come on they care about her quite a lot and thought they had messed up by breaking two of them)

(Actually, there was supposed to be more pages to this that would explain their true feelings to it after the initial shock and Elesa explaining why in the world she decided to do a pregnancy test in the first place.

And she'd y'know, ask them a what-if possibility if it were a positive?

They'd be more concerned about her feelings and all, and it's up to her to decide what to do about, and whatever her choice would be, they would wholeheartedly do their best to y'know, support her, be there for her like the awesome boyfriends they are.)

Which if you want, you can ask for it again, I won't mind drawing the continuation to this, but it might be more fluffy than funny tho and of course, would take longer to post—

[amateuranatomymechanic]

i swear to god every time i see people saying “evil trans men minimizing trans women’s experiences with transmisogyny and specifically trans women of color/the inherent race of gender perception in the West” or “evil trans women are attempting to erase the struggles and experiences of misogyny trans men are experiencing” i want to like. shove the “pokemon porn isnt real problems” meme at them

[jemmo]

idk what else to say about this ep other than i think im already head over heels in love with this show, and this ep was more than enough to seal the deal for me. it was just the perfect ep 2, and I already cannot talk enough about how much i adore just how much time this show feels like it devotes to its characters. like their time on screen just feels long somehow, in the best way, like im not getting rushed through the story or just going from plot point to plot point. the story is comfortable to just put these people on screen and let a scene play out for as long as it wants, take that first scene when mohk first goes into day’s room, or any scene around the fishtank, it’s not pushing you through these scenes to get to the point of them, bc the point is the scene, so mohk can take his time noticing these things in day’s room, or day can spend as long as he wants looking at that fish tank bc those actions, and the length of them, are what tell the story. they are the point. its mohk being one of the only people let into day’s room and being that attentive to his surroundings and figuring out who he is beyond his sight, and and its day savoring those moments where he can see the world a little better bc that’s the highlight of his day and he deserves to have that happiness stretched out as long as possible. it tells the story bc what the show devotes time to is what these characters are devoting their time to, literally mohk is devoting so much of his time to being with day, and devoting in the sense that while he talks about the big paycheck, easy job, the time he spends cleaning up, looking at day’s things, doing things for him, trying to give him experiences and joy, it betrays him. he can say whatever about his reasons for being here but what we see him devote his time to, what the show shows us, how much it shows us, it tells us everything. and for day, we see him repeatedly listening to the little prince, and im not gonna explain the metaphor, we all get it, but again despite what day says and how he behaves, pushing mohk out of his room and locking himself away, it betrays him too, bc he’s devoting all this time to wishing he wasn’t lonely. but just like in the book, it’s not easy for him, it’s not just about going out into a world that scares him, he needs someone to ease him in, to devote their time to him, come at sit a little closer to him everyday until that fear starts to subside. and here mohk is everyday, trying to find the ways he can connect with him, even if to him it’s not something he’s trying to consciously do. time is just beautiful in this show, and i feel like it’s gonna be such a good way to watch the show going forward knowing it is about this impending loss of sight, that time is limited, and yet now it doesn’t feel like there’s any rush at all. and i think it’ll be great to feel the pace of the show changing as the story progresses towards that, and i think retroactively it’ll be rewarding to know that when we could, we did savour all those moments, and took all the time we wanted.

[thirdtimed]

unfortunately if i ever developed the lifeseries orv au in my head in earnest i would in no capacity whatsoever manage to be normal about it at all and like. i mean it

[merakiui]

omg getting tag teamed by trey and cater while drunk in these tags !! your brain is massive as always 🫶🫶

also cater getting serious orz i never knew i needed mean(er) cater in my life but i'll 100% be brainrotting about that for the forseeable future!!!

[also trey changing the flavor of his own shots in the original drunk reader post. he's so mean >:o!! (i love him still)]

Yes!!! Just two kind and helpful upperclassmen helping you when you’re drunk. <3 aren’t they so sweet?

Serious Cater is always so fun to think about. I love the idea of him dropping his outgoing, extroverted side and becoming more colder or less cheerful when you’re drunk because you’re too intoxicated to realize the shift, so you won’t ask any questions if his tone isn’t what you’re used to. It’s such a shock to hear him sound anything less than cheery, but I think it’s so good to think about. orz I love a serious Cater who doesn’t have to keep up any masks when you’re drunk.

Trey is so sneaky. (๑•̀ㅁ•́๑) !!!! His UM is very useful during drinking games because he can trick you into drinking more simply by changing the taste so it will go down easier. And you would not expect him to do such a thing because he has such a kind face and he is so patient and sweet. But it is exactly that type you have to watch out for!! (I also love him despite his mischievous behavior hehe.)

[tianalaurence1]

Princess Anne, Princess Royal and Vice Admiral Sir Timothy Laurence attend day 2 of the 2024 Royal Windsor Horse Show in Home Park, Windsor Castle on May 2, 2024 in Windsor, England.

(Photo by Max Mumby/Indigo/Getty Images)

[lacefuneral]

if tumblr causes disco elysium to form an annoying fandom i will not forgive them.

[fallowhearth]

Re: the endless kink wars and people wanting to sort everyone into ontologically Victim or Abuser, perhaps this is just because I'm more interested in the sensation sides of kink rather than the power exchange side, but it's weird how much of the discourse hinges upon the idea that kink is something that inherently involves multiple people. But, that's just not my experience at all? There's a whole world out there of kinky people doing things to themselves all on their own.

If I'm hitting myself with a spiked rubber paddle, am I the bottom (Good) or the top (Evil)? For the former, yes I'm obviously doing it because I enjoy the sensation. But for the latter, I'm also enjoying swinging the paddle, because otherwise I wouldn't bother, or would make more of an effort to seek out a play partner. I'm getting something out of the kinetic experience of hitting. I'm also enjoying the mastery of the activity - it feels good to know that I am skilled in the administration of pain. The enjoyment I get from hitting myself with a paddle has significant overlaps with the enjoyment I get from being the impact top in a scene with someone else, and of course has significant overlaps with the enjoyment I get from being the impact bottom with someone else. The dichotomy necessarily breaks down.

Lots of people who are kinky and consider themselves exclusively bottoms (unlike me), administer pain and bondage etc to themselves. I mean, it's common enough that a fair chunk of kink safety messaging has to be oriented toward preventing people from accidentally causing themselves serious harm due to lack of skill/judgement during solo play.

The argument inevitably has to retreat away from the specifics and back to the generalities, ie well the people doing kinky stuff to themselves are men and therefore evil pervert males, well if women are doing it also then they must have been corrupted by the expectations of evil pervert men, or well if they're lesbians then it's the evil pervert male media. I've rarely seen it go any other direction than straight back to rancid essentialism. It's radfem nonsense again! What a surprise.

[deadrocks]

Looking back on two complete seasons, I have to say the most romantic moment in Tokyo Vice was when Tozawa's wife told Hagino to be sure to get some sun and take his vitamins.

[armatization]

sometimes i think about an IRL friend of mine (who i met through fandom) being sooo shocked i'm into shipping and like

looks at my social medias. my AO3. this blog. how have i hidden this??